It's the last day of 2oo5. Will be out partying with the guys.. Maybe over at Sentosa? But da age limit is 18.. =(

More updates when I'm back. =D

Protect your VALUABLES.

Don't get what I mean by valuables? Not jewelleries, handphones, etc.

BUT..*TOOT*

Still don't know what I mean?

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=j-rtdWeZD2U (the previous post's html was cocked up)

If you still dunno, jump off the window.

I've got a job! I'll be working at CWP on Mon and Tues. Then from Thurs onwards I'll be transferred to Jurong. So far, so sad. =(

Congrats to my younger sister who received her Edusave today. I also got lor(when I was pri 1 =/)!!! Hmmph. I didn't attend. Lazy mah.. Mum forgot to bring the cam along, if not can take her f*cking face. Muahahaha..

Joking lah! I'm not so evil right?! But anyway the CC which sponsored or maybe organised(whatever!) this Edusave thingy has a photographer who took pics of each and every winner. I'll upload her t0oted face when she collects it from them. =D

I was chatting with Observer on MSN. Then he was acting stupid lor. LOL.. Because my nick was "i dance around in my underwear. He said he wanted to see me dance. So..



LOL! But he was using an older version of MSN then too bad! Haha. Eventually he saw my silliness cos I sent him this pic. Muahahaha.. How mad can I be..

3 more days to 2006!

Lemme tell you why I look and sound stupid,


I'm back together with Eric, whom happened to be your Peixin pri schmate, after 2 years! Maybe its fate..

Because he left me fond memories which no other guys had (I mean every guy has their special ways to make me smile lah!). Don't ask me why.

Both of us regretted at the same time without each other knowing. But everything was too late. You can say that fate has really brought us together after all these ups and downs. Ya lah.. I used to doubt fate, but now it has proven me wrong.

A couple of years just passed so quickly, what more can I say for '05?

Yes.. Many bfs (hahaha!), quarrels and misunderstandings with peeps, baby kat popping outta muh bitch's womb, and the list goes on....

Am now counting down to 2006; A brand new year, a brand new me. =D Sounds action hor?

Resolutions ain't thought of yet. But no point also.. Cos i've never ever completed them. Muahaha.

Ciaos people, I'm going under the covers! I've not slept for 36 hours! =.=..

After 2 years of ups and downs...

The day I've been waiting for is finally here. =)

I won't regret this decision I've made, cos I've learnt to cherish this opportunity.

Xmas was

Plans for Xmas, anyone?

Actually Ronald and I wanted a different Christmas this year, rather than clubbing and town-ing. We thought of Sentosa, not Zoukout lah. Dunno what event.

Anyway, majority of us chose clubbing at MU instead. =/ Imagine 10+ VS 2 ppl. Of cos we have to go with the flow. LOL. I will remember to bring along my digicam and get the night lights!

More updates when I get back tmr!

I don't know if what I'm doing now is considered right or wrong.

Times when I feel that I've phobia towards the way you're treating me, I wanna go MIA. But times when I feel that I'm happy with you, as in you're sucha nice friend, I don't want to.

Maybe I was sending you the wrong signals all the time, you think. I know. But I don't wanna lose this friendship. Because whenever you're upset, you go MIA. How do you expect me to tell you truthfully how I feel?

Is this an my act of selfishness?

Now watch this. LOL!!

From an email;

On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the remaining of the gift I didn't manage to buy earlier. When I saw all the people there, I started to complain to myself, "It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go. Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year. How Iwish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up after it..."

Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if after all kids really play with such expensive toys.

While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who this doll was for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him, "Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?"

The old lady replied, "You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear." Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I started to walk toward him and I asked him who he wanted to give this doll to. "It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her."

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus will bring it to her, after all, and not to worry.

But he replied to me sadly. "No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there." His eyes were so sad while saying this. "My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister."

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said, "I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the supermarket."

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me, "I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me." I love my mummy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister." Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy, "What if we checked again, just in case if you have enough money?" "Ok," he said. "I hope that I have enough."

I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll, and even some spare money. The little boy said, "Thank you God for giving me enough money." Then he looked at me and added, "I asked yesterday before I slept for God to make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me." "I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but I didn't dare to ask God too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose." "You know, my mummy loves white rose."

A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left with my trolley.

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a car where there was one young lady and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away. I couldn't stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wish before burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.

I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever.

The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunken man had taken all this away from him.

Behold..! The precious ones.



Then I brought Carebear over to Eric's place to make new friends! xD



This frog has swollen lips! LOL.


..it sticks it's tongue out tooooo!!!

Now check this turtle out.


"Weeee..! Imma multi-tasker!!!!"


"My family! The botak ones haven't reached their puberty stage. And Baby Turtle's hiding behind!!"


Okay. I might seem stupid.

BE KIND TO ANIMALS.

I'm in a gooooooooood mood today. Let's just say 'these days'.

I don't know why. xD

Anyway, the guys came over and raided my place today. Wtf. Ah boy still wanted to wreck my PS2. Later on was a mahjong session at Pris's again.




If u can see carefully, a faggot is trying to pose behind me while I was playing with my digicam. For ur info, I did not edit the first pic to grey. My house is way too dark. =/


Then we decided that we should take a pic together! Ah boy and his lousy photography skills. We had to pose for 25421354 shots before we got this.

I felt rather weird when we took pics together. It's best when he realises he'd let me down in the past. But that's wad I heard from Ron. All thats left in me are just memories.. No matter how fate twists and turns, I don't wanna be a fool again. We're still friends afterall. :))))

it's awful...

Maybe I didn't blog about it. It hurts to hear someone ever so close to you tell you a small lie. Maybe its an excuse instead. Its not her first time, and I doubt it would be her last.

For the first few times I tolerated. I tried to make it craps whenever I hear excuses. But whenever I think of it, it nearly kills me seriously. Emotionally at least. I want to believe. But her actions are apparantly not what she said. I don't get it.

Perhaps she don't treat me like how I treat her, perhaps she uses my money more than I use hers, perhaps she smokes all of my cigs all the time, so many perhaps I can say, but all I wanna know its why did she give me lies and excuses? Because she was my closest, therefore the concern.

I can listen to shits for the first, second time, or maybe once in a million years. But for 3 years I've been getting all the garbage on a daily basis. Last week I finally cried. Yes, I was happy. Not because I've been deceived, but because I can let that burden out. I've never cried over friends before, it really pains me.

Its not that I've never exposed her lies or talk to her about this before. Now I agree with 'a leopard never changes its spots'. No doubt she's like shit at times, but I still treat her like how I treated her all the while. I had enough of her chantings and everything, but I don't wanna lose this friendship, or maybe few say sistership.

But people I'm fine. Don't worry.

to Hanis. its not that i'm problematic. its just that i only blog about these shits and not my happiness u stupid! wahahaha.

It's been days since I posted my last entry. Nobody reads my boring entries anyway!!! =/

Everything might be for some twist of fate.

Sometimes things just get so complicated for me to make a decision. But I don't think its that confusing for me at times. I just don't know what I really want. Am seriously not ready to commit into a relationship, and I don't want to. I'd rather you had never told me anything. I feel really weird at times.. Probably we should keep a distance as in can you please stop treating me like your girlfriend? It's funny noe. If you happen to see this. I hope you understand and get what I really mean. Sorry..

I know I'm not the only one having these headaches every now and then (hahaha!), but I don't get the sudden raise in r/s problems among my girls. I REALLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND.

Especially for one dearest who sms-ed me saying that she got beaten, I REALLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND why in the world would some sickening bastards enjoy beating fragile women up.

It really saddens me more when she is one of my closest. Not because she is physically hurt but sigh.. Apparantly I cannot do much. Aiya I dunno wad to do lah.

And I've fallen ill again lor! I'm down with cough and serious flu again. Even slight fever the day before I think. Can I change a nose??

Another thing. I cannot tahan stupid people with fucked up attitude. The one who talks to me like he's some kinda big boss or whatever shit. He thinks he's a damn big fuck with a big dick? Sorry lor. I think your kukubird is just like my little finger, or maybe smaller! MUAHAHAHA. You damn idiot. One more time and I'll hire a disgusting rapist to rape you so agressively that you scream while you beg.

Oh God! I am jobless!

Don't ask me why. It's fucked up. Intro me jobs please!

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